Grubs

I have started a compost and was excited while turning my soil today to find a ton of grubs! Hopefully this means that I can have some great soil for growing next year:)

Serious Business

So, I ran a 5K last month, and am now running at least 3 days a week. I have been invited to participate in a triathalon in October, and the crazy thing is that I am actually considering doing it. I see some serious conditioning in my future!

Throw back

I never thought I would get back into fun running, but after the 5k this weekend, I just might. I ran a 5k and then ran another mile with both boys. It brought back so many memories of running with my dad in the Bolder Boulder. Cody really loves running, and next year we may do the 5k together.



We also had a blast fairwell party with Uncle Andrew. Come visit often, while the boys still think you are cool!

A New Season

As the season changes, so is my life changing. I am so joyful to be able to stay at home with my kids, and watch them grow up. After working outside the home for more than half my life and for my entire life as a mom it is so different to be able to focus all my attention on my family. I am doing a new study with the women at church, Calm My Anxious Heart by Linda Dillow. While we are just two chapters in, it has made me take a serious look at my life and my habits. The prescription for contentment gave me some things to work on: 1. Never complain about anything-not even the weather 2. Never picture yourself in any other circumstances or some place else. 3. Never compare your lot with anothers. 4. Never allow yourself to wish this or that had been otherwise. 5. Never dwell on tomorrow, remember that tomorrow is Gods not ours. I have been habitually discontent in my life, allowing my circumstances decide my happiness. I have started making an effort to be thankful for my blessings, but to be content also with the trials and tribulations. To force myself to live in today and not worry about what has happened or what will happen. Philippians 4:8 is my verse for this season..."whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. I will learn to be content in every situation!

At Least I'm Not As Sad As I Used To Be

One of my friends posted this as their status the other day, and it made me think about my life. I had a great life by secular views while I was living in Denver; a job with lots of money/benefits, great husband, lots of friends and stuff. I was really sad to leave for Las Vegas, NM. I knew it was the right choice, but was certainly not "happy" about it. This was nothing new for me, I had been in a downward spiral since graduation from highschool. I am amazed at how happy I am now. I had let my circumstances dictate my happiness. I was disconnected Fom God and needed to be awakened. I had allowed myself to be lulled by my fleshly desires to the point of self destruction. When we moved I was forced to go back to my roots...church, every Sunday. It was the only place I knew I could meet people, and start my life over. I have been blessed with an awesome group of people full of love and kindness with accountability to make right choices despite my past. I have found a very real joy deep down in my heart, and I am Sooo Happy!

Motivation???

Have you ever wanted something so badly it consumes your every thought? I find myself in that place right now. I desire but lack all motivation to change anything. There are many things I desire to change, and have started to work towards routine on some, maybe the most important...daily time with God, scripture memorization and bible study/reading. I am not working towards health, and it has recently occurred to me that I cannot have a complete relationship with God unless I can discipline myself in all arenas if my life. It does me little good to indulge in an unhealthy physical lifestyle even if my spiritual one is getting better. It says in 1 Peter to avoid fleshly desires, not just sinful pleasures, but anything not useful. Need to get my butt in gear literally!

The Encourager

The past year I have been involved in a womens bible study at church. I have met some amazing women who love the Lord, but one in particular has caught my attention. She always had something good to say, not just in generalities, but specific bits of encouragement. Genuine interest in my endeavors, problems and joys. She is an encourager. This is something that has been weighing heavily on my heart lately. I find myself not wanting to settle, when I really need to remember that just because my best is better/different does not make someone elses best worse. I also realize that I am not the best at everything I do, but expect others to accept ME where I am. I have to remind myself to take a walk in their shoes and appreciate the effort, help and encourage growth...not eliminate or discount people because they are not the best, have not reached their goal/potential. I am sarcastic by nature, and find myself in regret more often than I should because of things I have said. I want to encourage, I want to teach, but also want to have/be the best in life. So I guess this all leads to the question, where is your hope?

In the past I have put more stock in what people around me thought of my life, talents, stuff, job, etc than in what God thought of these things. My heart is changing, but my habits are engrained. Step by step I guess, it's a process of change. God is working in me though.

This weeks question

Are there people who want to believe in Jesus that aren't able to?

At first I thought NO! But then you said, are there people who want to be fit that aren't able, of couse! We have to choose to workout, eat right, and change our lifestyle.

How do I move myself to action? How do I overcome my weakness, my laziness? What is my motivator?

I know that there is treasure being stored up for me in His bank, but I find it so hard not to focus on the here and now, I want my cup to be overflowing, now. At the same time, I know that I don't lean on the Lord when I have plenty.

I don't want to struggle, strive, work, but know that the narrow path is not easy. It is this battle I must fight. Remind myself constantly that I mustdeny the desires of my flesh and change my lifestyle, change my desires.

The story of a girl...7

I went feeling unimportant to being infinitely important, a lifesource. Having children was the best thing that ever happened to me. I was no longer allowed to be selfish, I had to grow up. I had to re-evaluate my priorities. If I was going to raise Godly men, I had to be Godly. Not religious mind you, but a follower of Jesus. It was difficult in Denver to do this. We had lots of friends who weren't Christians, and a lifestyle that did not reflect my beliefs.
God provided opportunity for us to move in 2009 to Las Vegas, NM.  This wasn't my first choice of places to call home, but as my brother says, NM grows on you! We found a church, which just happened to be going through transition also, looking for a new pastor.

This is a story of a girl...6

My knight in shining armor, the love of my life, best friend, lover. Call him what you will, he saved my life. I met Jason at UPS. He worked on the airplanes that we loaded. I knew I would marry him from day 1, and it happened very fast! Eight months from our first date, we were married. The first 2 years were hard...with only 8 months under our belt, there was still a lot to get to know, and living with someone changes the whole dynamic of a relationship. I was a terrible communicator, and obviously had enough personal issues for the both of us. To add to the stress, I lost a pregnancy in the first year. I started seeing a councelor, again. We made it through, although there was doubt in my mind to this point as to whether I had made a good decision. The turning point for us was really Crossroads Community Church in Parker, Colorado. We found a great community of believers here, and began to actively seek God's plan for our relationship. This was the best season of my life. Once again, I felt very loved, accepted and truly had something to give/offer. I was not looking for anything, I was full and overflowing. We did service together, worked hard, and began to grow together.